This is what happens to resolutions! They fizzle out or I get lazy. Not that I didn’t have so many good things and ideas to write about.. but I just didn’t want to pull out the phone and jot something down.

Today happened because I felt guilt.. one of the strongest emotions known to mankind.. the one feeling that makes you do things you never thought you were capable of. The feeling that women are made to feel while growing up for everything that is wrong in their lives and men learn to deal with by anger.

Guilt to me is a perceived feeling that people try and load onto another individual when their said patterns are not met by someone.. I expected something different, how can you do this? You were better than this? This isn’t how you should behave? You should be ashamed of yourself are examples where either your brain or someone external who is capable of causing you a heartburn (not the one caused by food) loads their expectations on you and then you suffer from this syndrome called guilt.

This is what I found on google – Feeling responsible or regretful for a perceived offense, real or imaginary. Can be part of the grief reaction.

Focus on the word perceived and know that MOST times when you feel guilt due to someone external..it is that someone trying to put you down for something they are ashamed of and are trying to pawn off that feeling to you.. don’t believe me? Next time you feel guilty, think about what you really did to get there and do you feel guilty or did someone say something to get you there.. you will be surprised!

Ridden with guilt for being lazy and not writing..

Till later..